Surrender is a reoccurring thing in my life, as I believe it is for most followers of Jesus. It has come in many forms as I have grown and aged and has looked both familiar and strange. I am married and have three small children, so you can imagine throughout the phases and changes of life, surrender is fresh on my mind and heart. I have seen God move and change and care for me in many ways; He always provides, protects and moves in our favor. I know this to be true, yet in my humanness I somehow always forget and He gently reminds me in a series of amazing promptings and answerings. I love this about Him. He cares for us so tenderly. Just recently I have hit my biggest season of surrender so far, and it hit hard. But once again He is so present, and I am so grateful.
In September of 2015, I experienced some sort of a thyroid storm, they call it, and was diagnosed with an auto immune disease. I have struggled with thyroid problems for roughly 13 years, but the doctors have always been able to manage it with medicine. This time was very different. I gained about 9 pounds in 2 weeks, unexplained. My body went into a state of shock and complete fatigue. From there I was led to, by friends and random acquaintances, different doctors, a naturopath and a functional doctor. It has been a journey full of unknowns, lots of supplements, a complete change in diet, total change of medicines, and lots of sleep! God’s guidance and urgings and providences are too many to speak of through this time. Let’s just say He has been all over it, every single step has been guided by an amazing Father!
My surrender starts every day. Not much has changed, I have good days and bad days, days when I can push through without extra sleep and days when sleeping is all I accomplish. I am doing really well if I can fold laundry, empty the dishwasher, have the littles where they need to be and take care of mine and my sisters' little online boutique. I am not used to this low level of activity and life. It’s almost like fasting. At each turn I have to give myself over, talk to God about these changes and beg him for healing and patience. He is good, always, as I surrender He provides. He has used family and friends to provide meals, prayer, house cleaning, countless texts and emails with encouragement. Most of all he has given me my little family, a husband who tirelessly helps and comforts and encourages, and kids who eat crazy food with me and understand, even at their young ages, my sleepiness.
Over the past month, He has whispered and yelled, HOPE! Over and over again He speaks it to my soul. This is a part of my story, my story that exists for HIS GLORY! I was not promised a pretty little life of ease, perfection and health. I was given a life to further my Savior’s kingdom, and this, I know, is one of the ways He will use me in His plan. I have HOPE, he has promised me that! Christ in me, the HOPE of glory (Colossians 1:27)! He didn’t say how, he just said follow and believe. I will do this. I will surrender, all day, every day. It’s my story, His Glory!
ERIN FUDURIC is a co-owner of Given. She is all things creative and runs the daily operations of her and her sisters’ cause-conscious online boutique. She lives in South Carolina with her high school sweetheart and husband of 12 years, Joseph. They have 3 littles, Lucy, Jesse & Hoke and a lab named Fisher. Connect with Erin at the Given website and Instagram or her personal Instagram.