Patience and I have never been good friends. It seems I have always wanted to be at least one step ahead of where I actually am, no matter the season of life I happen to be in. What’s next, and when will it happen? And why can’t it be right now? Yes, I have struggled with these questions for as long as I can remember.
And this has been especially true since the beginning of my marriage. From the time my husband and I were engaged (and that was only three months after meeting, talk about patience!), we have been pursuing one goal- to get him through law school. He was still working on his undergrad during the first two years of our marriage…and all I could think about was getting to that next step. Through the LSAT, law school applications and the completion of his BA, my mind was always, always on what was next.
In 2013, we moved from sunny Southern California, to Kentucky- a huge move, but one I had eagerly been anticipating for years. So, happy ending, right? Husband in law school, long desired move to a new state. It should have all been perfect from there.
Of course, it wasn’t. Because, again, all I could focus on was what life would look like when he was in a successful career, when we had children, when we could buy our own home.
I was also struggling to find a community in our new city. I missed our California church family, and I longed to meet women I could develop as deep of friendships with as those left behind.
The next three years were a blur (honestly, it’s hard for me to believe it’s been almost four years since our move). My sweet and brilliant hubby graduated, and passed the bar exam. But, like any career, neither of these meant he wasn’t in store for many more years of building his career.
And this is what this story is really about. Waiting.
The Psalms are filled with reminders of the blessings given to those who wait on the Lord. And what about Isaiah 40:31:
But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not be faint. (ESV)
Remember how I said I struggled to make friendships in our new city? I prayed constantly for just one friend who I could share and grow with. And after about three years, the Lord brought into my life a young woman not only in a similar season of wait, but one who has taught me (finally) about the absolute beauty a season of wait can have. About the many different ways the Lord will use “waiting” to work on your heart, to show you areas of weakness, to strengthen your faith.
This beautiful friend has been a shining example of trusting in the Lord with all of your heart; knowing He is in control of the future, and is preparing great things. It is not always easy to cast your concerns on the One Above- but isn’t that what He wants from us? To cast our anxieties, our struggles, our questions on Him? Are we not instructed to be concerned with only today, and not tomorrow, for He will take care of all things? My sweet friend, the one I waited three years to meet, is teaching me how to wait…strangely enough, by baking bread. And playing the ukulele. But that’s a different story.
As my husband and I move into another new season of life, I am working on being comfortable in the “wait”. We are still a long way away from success, from a house…from being student-debt free. We are even a little way from children. And for the very first time, as long as I can remember, I am ok with waiting.
The Lord is preparing something tremendous for us all, and if we try to take it before His time, it won’t be nearly good as what He has planned. If you are in a season of waiting, lean into it- lean into Him. I suspect it will be worth it.
JENNIE JEFFERY is a former California-Girl turned Kentucky-Woman, who is leaning into her own season of waiting. Along with being a wife and puggle-mama, Jennie is a very amateur bread-baker, ukulele player, scrap-booker...and occasional blogger. You can find her at pearlspeoniesandpurpose.com, and also on Instagram.